Been a long time...

it is August 26. 2014 and it is 11:31 pm and yes I am a mommy now!!! I actually have my baby boy Liam on my chest as I type this blog out my baby loves sleeping on my chest I love it! I don't mind if he does become to attached I want him to always want to be with someone never wanting to be alone. as a child even though I had 4 sisters I still did everything on my own...weird I know. anyways being a mother is sure tougher than I thought...hmmm lets start from the beginning
on august 1st I went to my doctors appointment at 37 weeks and 6 days I had an ultra sound done to check my amniotic fluid turns out it was very low I needed it to be at least a 5 and it was a 3 so my doctor told me looks like your having your baby today!! how insane. Edward was at work so my mom texted him to come home because I was having the baby he drove home in at least an hour and a half from corpus.

my doctor then dilated me to 3 cm herself all I can say is it was painful!! I went home got my hospital bag and baby bag ready and went to the hospital with my mom and dad I went in around 11 and Edward got there around 1. skipping ahead I was dilated at 9 1/2 cm at 4:50 the next day I did not feel any intense pain with the contractions until that time all I felt was major cramps but nothing to bad. once I did get to 9 1/2 cm I wanted the epidural but once the nurse checked me I was already to far along she was worried that if I sit up I would sit on the babys head so she gave me an iv to help the pain a little but it just made me drowsy. at around 5 my doctor showed up as if she had just gotten out of bed. seriously. once a contraction came I would push then fall asleep for 1 minute then the same repeatedly four times until at 5:17 my boy came at 7lbs and 1oz

he came out crying and all I said was why is he crying keep in mind I am half asleep and not in anymore pain gladly I did not tear nor did I get an episotomy I was truly blessed except for the fact that my face was SWOLLEN which is very common for women who just had their baby it is exactly 12:22 am Liam woke up for a feeding... back after I had him I was so relieved to get sleep I was so exhausted when I woke up from my 10 minute nap I woke up to this..

its amazing and crazy to love someone so much you didn't even know but because he is mine I love him so much!!!

2nd trimester :)

Yesterday I am officially 20 weeks half way there!!! This baby boy has been kicking like crazy The night before Edward was talking to him saying hello since he had just gotten back home and he started kicking to where he was talking and Edward felt the kicks it was so cute:)

This baby boy has been growing so fast I'm just so excited to meet him but I've been enjoying this pregnancy so far:) 

A story which is tmi 

Lately my breast have been leaking so much I know tmi but it's insane and funny it's just so surreal.

Yesterday I was having a hard time getting up from laying down. He was giving me so much pain I had to wait for him to move so I can bend and get up I feel extremely huge! Since I've always been thin and just having this belly feels like I'm already ready to have this baby out lol but not quite since he's still growing in there:)

As I type this he's been kicking :) it's such an awesome experience  to have this baby inside and this pregnancy even the nausea was fine I'm just so happy:) 

19weeks

Lately I have been feeling the lil one move around a lot like crazy. Not only dad but I've been able to feel his kicks for a few weeks now:) so happy to feel him moving around freely in there just so u know I love u to let u kick my bladder -.- lol anyways Edward felt the baby kick last week and last night my mom felt him kick he's being such a sweetheart kicking for everyone to feel:) including me! Then I blame myself I would poke my belly just for him to kick and now he's doing it. Constantly I wake up at night just feeling me kick me to turn to my other side lol well played my baby.

I've noticed his favorite spot is on the right side every day i wake up and he's just there chilling like a big boy already choosing his sides 😉

I cannot wait till he's born were so excited we even got more clothe for him so far only 2 outfits were not buying any new born clothing more like 3 months I think he's going to be long and thin since I'm hardly showing and I'm already nearing up to the 5 months but I'm so happy I can't wait to see him!

Picked up a pair of maternity pants they are not fitted to me yet but maybe once I'm a lil bigger they'll fit better:) 

Anyways this is him when we went at 13 weeks he's so big already!! Can't wait for the next sono

Happy birthday

Today was my little sisters birthday she turned 13 I can't believe she's a teenager already how insane!! 

I'm so happy she enjoyed her day with lazer tag then Peter piper :) we ate a lot!!!

On an update with me I have been thinking a lot about the baby and it's been all I think about I don't know if it's a boy or girl or who's nose or eyes or ears he/she will have but I decided it won't matter I would love a boy but a lil girl would be nice also:) I can't believe tokorrow I will be 7 weeks!! Im going to try to work only for a few hours but if I get the abdominal pain again ill just leave right away today while I was sitting with my mom and cousin while everyone else played lazer tag I got the most insane pain ever I wanted to cry I seriously thought maybe something had happened I don't know why I'm getting so much pain but I hope God it goes away and everything is just fine with the baby. I love you already and I'm happy everyone in my family and Edwards family is so happy also:) 

December update

It's hard to believe how fast everything is moving seems like just yesterday me and Edward were on the phone talking for the first time ever on December 24,2009. On 12/24/13 I went to the doctors feeling sick I had this horrible abdominal pain and it felt like cramps I thought it was my cyst since I was also having a slight fever. The doctor came back with many test and gave me the positive.

To what else. To a new life. It's hard to believe I wanted to finish school first then get a job then get married then be like that for a few years before we decided on kids. But the scariest was why I was getting this pain the doctor was guessing it could be an Ectopic pregnancy where the embryo is stuck in the Fallopian tube (which I thought was cool since I learned that in my anatomy class) the scary thing was if it was I would have to get it removed.  

And the next day was christmas I had already told my parents once I found out I did not want to keep it a secret if its life was in danger.

On 12/26/13 my mom and I and Edward went to the hospital to find out the pain the doctors were beyond rude but I don't care I was there to see how everything was after 8 hrs of sonogram blood work and urine test everything was ok (I did not get to see anything of hear anything because the ultrasound technician I'm guessing was mad since he was working they all kept saying that's why you go to your obgyn and I said I actually just found out 2 days ago) those jerks I just needed to know if everything was ok ))and I just needed bed rest the crazy part was I read the baby heart beat was 114!!! Edward said he's prbly working out. Lol I was scared and confused But like my mother said maybe it's Gods way He thinks your ready. 

Ready or not it's going to come. and sorry for the (it's) I just haven't gotten used to it yet. Everything just seemed to be moving to fast I just want to stay underneath my covers and watch everything disappear. I want to finish nursing school. That's my goal. I WILL finish if this baby is just a slight drift that's fine school will be there later but I'm focused on finishing college I need to finish college it's like my dream. (Over-exaggerate) maybe not right now I feel so happy and joyful but I know I probably will. It's a CRAZY feeling to know I have a little shrimp inside me (bleh) I always thought sperm even having a tail was weird like a tadpole but oh well. 

I'm happy my parents were ok though I was a little shocked to their reaction I mostly cried and felt like I wanted to jump off a building.

Edward just seemed happy and I was very ANGRY how could he be excited or even happy but I'm glad one of us were it should be celebrated no matter what and for me to feel this way will prbly affect me later on to read in the future but that's how I feel right now I need to be honest. 

Edwards parents were even different his mom just said ayy niños and his dad was clapping -_- again not so happy. My sister was crying but happy and I was scared shocked and still couldn't grasp the fact that it was actually a baby. 

Anyways I have nausea but it's going away since I'm already 6 weeks and 4 days:o how insane seriously I feel like fainting everytime I say that. Anyways I gotta go shower and clean my room and look thru my clothes of what still fits until I can no longer wear it :/ but yes I still cannot really say these words yet and I won't but yup. Goodbye and until next week this is like my own journal:) 

My mother thank you God for blessing me with her:)

Music Monday!

My favorite song this month: 

Sweater weather by the neighborhood

 http://youtu.be/PW-oia9YjwY

If you haven't yet heard it it's a great song and goes with the weather:)

Workout routine

Starting my workout routine is always hard! After school started I didn't workout anymore since school was taking most of my time and Edward didn't have a job so I was spending as much time as I can with him because somehow I knew he would leave again. Plus school and after work I'm always so exhausted of being on my feet all day I just don't have the will power to get up and workout. Me and Edward tried going to the park and just take a walk but it's so hot here in texas you will just get sunburn and it's not worth it. Once Edward got a job again (Which I knew would happen) and he left to corpus AGAIN I decided to get back to working out. Plus school is almost over so what is stopping me? Nothing. The only thing is I got into the habit of eating burgers I have been obsessed with burgers for this semester I don't know why. 

For it being the first time in working out it was TOUGH I did t25 I'm not a big fan of the cardio so I started with core speed which I know is way more ahead and advanced but I think cardio is to slow.

I felt so lightheaded and nauseated after working out it only made sense since yesterday and the day before that me and Edward got whataburger. I know I know bad Becky lol but I just love the honey BBQ Chicken strip.... Moving on before I go buy one lol we've been eating out so much! And he has not gain weight like I have since he does Brazilian jiu-jitsu but anyways my semester is almost over and can't wait for tmrw in being sore:) I hope I keep up:) 

Makeup Haul&catch up

I have been gone for such a long time but let me catch up I went strawberry blonde:)

which I LOVE  I'm sticking to this hair color not only that BUT! I have become OBSESSED with makeup like lipstick, concelear, primer, eye shadows and eye liner. Oh gosh on Monday my boyfriend took me shopping and I went to Walmart and I bought several lipstick  products and I just love them all.

Anyways school is going kinda hard I've been having a hard time staying focus and had to drop a class because the other class was keeping more of time but still that is Not an excuse. Hopefully I get better because the semester is ending and I am doing better on my anatomy class but still school is getting tougher. Tomorrow is my dad's birthday and I cannot wait to give him his gift

going to log off because my boyfriend is getting it out of his jujitsu class and I'm waiting for him so goodbye and have a good night

Oh gosh hoping I get to get a macbookpro *fingers crossed* 

My family

I never noticed before when I was younger how much my family means to me. Before it was like whatever but as I got older I started understanding how much my parents mean the world to me And how much my older sister is just the best my little sisters are very different but u know what they both encourage me so much! 

I'm blessed to have the greatest parents my dad is hilarious I see where my older sister gets it from my mom is so sweet and caring just liked my little sisters I'm glad to say they are the best. 

Motivation

i have not worked out in about 2 weeks and can i say i am getting very sad about that!:( i miss it but imma get back at it soon VERY soon the new focus T25 is coming out and imma get it!!! can't wait to do the workout but till then im going to be lifting weights and getting my muscles toned!! their going to be bigger than Fredward lol anyways miss my workout but Rachel Vaziralli is my motivation and inspiration she is a beach body coach from insanity and her arms are insane i want mine like that :D 

vacation photos!

we had such an AMAZING time at krause springs and splash town to bad i didn't have my phone at splash town but we did go to austin and san antonio and it was so nice to just get away for a few days even though we had to cut the trip a day short we had an amazing time! it was a sad day to go back home because i really enjoyed it! we all go really burned but hey who doesn't love a little sun? i know i dont but oh well just for a while i decided to enjoy it