So far...

Hello!! it's been a long while its 12:00 and me and liam are still awake.. oh geez this kid. today was a long day only because I was sitting in a chair from 8-5 doing school work...
liam is 17 months! and he is so crazy he likes watching t.v which is not good at all we try to go outside but geez I feel like everytime I do I get a headache, and I want to go to the park but I don't like to go alone. I know I know.
I would say so far life has been amazing me and Edward just celebrated our 6 year anniversary and we've been talking about having another baby before liam turns 3 the only thing is I am still overweight...well I still haven't lost my baby weight but all that is about to change because Monday me and my sister are starting up insanity! again haha but man that workout video really works!
not only that but also I just started school and I don't think I want to get pregnant during school again because then it'll be another year I put off or maybe just 6 months. But then we also don't want liam growing up alone I had 2 sisters and Edward had his twin brother.
I am still currently breastfeeding I have been trying to wean him off and so far he only nurses a few times but at night he does way to much. he wakes up multiple times to nurse I offer him regular milk but nope he doesn't want that at night.
my life has been going good so far I am very very blessed with everything God has given me I have an amazing family and parents, sisters, and future mother in law (family in law? is that one) haha anywho I will try and update a lot more I want to look back at what I write it's good memories :D

Thoughts after Liam: our relationship

So I came back home about a week ago and I decided mind as well stay for my dad's birthday so here I am sticking around I decided I should tidy up my old room since I was going to be here a while  . I put a few things in boxes and my dad took it up to the attic. while rummaging thru my book case I found a small photo album of pictures I haven't seen since I probably developed them! Inside were pictures of Edward and I probably the year 2013 the last year we would have with each other before Liam. We looked happy in love we kissed and cuddled and held hands ALL the time and seeing those photos made me realize we don't hug and kiss as much are responsibilities have shifted a lot. Now that Liam is here we find ourselves caring for him more than each other were to tired to show love and affection. Edward works from 7-7 even from 7-2am so by the time I see him we are both quite exhausted! 

I miss those days where we just cared about each other and the only bills we had were our phones insurance and car bill. Now we live together and he supports us while I watch and care for our son.

I never thought this would happen to us I always thought Liam would not change our relationship towards each other but it did and I'm jot saying Liam was a mistake NEVER I just wish we had more time to ourselves to enjoy each other but whenever that time comes

I have decided to make a promise to kiss every night to pray for strength to have a simple conversation and talk about us. 

Who know if it'll work Edward is my best friend he always has been. We goof around so much! I don't think our relationship is ruined I just believe it can be a fixer upper! We should have more cuddles and kisses! Anyways that's my thoughts of now. 

Edward Luna

is it just me or do girls find their partner a lot more sexier when they are with their kid??

Gosh Edward.
I don't know where to start...
We've been together for 5 years! 

That is so insane to me because it seriously (I'm not kidding) feels like we just met. Like we were just meeting in the paintball field or walking. Around school getting to know each other. I don't even know where all the time has gone. It's like just yesterday when you first gave me your ring (which turned out was your dads lol) and like not that long ago you were driving me to my college class wow! Seriously I cannot believe it's been 5 years! Gosh it's just so insane for me to be with you for so long! I've never tolerated or even bothered to be with anyone this long but you.. God you are something special if not I would've dumped you 4 1/2 years ago(I never took him serious) but no things went good and we became closer and closer then you were my boyfriend and now your my sons father.

I never thought of having kids with you like we talked about it but it never actually seemed real till Liam was born and I never understood why it was such a big deal to you when I would say Liam loves me more until I would see your face break and I knew I had to go stay with you or else Liam would never get to know you. Your working and I'm taking care of Liam and were a family so we gotta stick together like you said

You are truly my best friend I can talk to you about us, things like makeup,clothe and family, and those makeup answers are funny like babe take that makeup off you don't need it and I respond with no you just don't want it to hurt your wallet lol you are the person I never thought of because I never truly believe love existed I never took you serious until now until I saw you with Liam and I knew I was with you because you loved me because I loved you and we are one. You are a truly amazing guy I cannot believe things have gone so awesome for us and I still can't believe we have Liam! If you would've told me I would've had a son with you I would've died I thought you were one of the cutest guys in high school and you still are 

I love you Edward so fucking much lol I remember when I first told you that you laughed so hard lol it was in high school on the stairs lol you truly are my best friend 

Family Vacation

My family and I recently went to fiesta texas it was just my mom and dad my sisters and liam sadly Edward could not make it because he was working but then he got rained out at work and he was able to come but on the way there his car battery messed up and he was stranded that day was raining like crazy but we still managed to have fun 

8 months old!....baby#2

My baby liam just turned 8 months like about 6 days ago haha

I am being so bad on updating on my blog and I need to do it at least once a week or maybe more..

I started a youtube channel of just our daily life with my son I never want to forget how small he was or how much he has made us laugh so far. it is insane seeing him eat and breath and laugh and play like what??? did this boy come out of me? did me and Edward make this precious boy it's insane he's our love he's our boy our wonderful sweet boy:)

 

I've been trying to convince Edward in having another baby I really do not want liam growing up on his own I grew up with 4 sisters and it was awesome even though we had to share we got along it was fun we always had someone there.

 

but Edward wants to wait a year or two in a way I am fine because my body is not near to where i want it to be I am still at 150 when liam was born I was 174 before I was at 139 how sad is that?! I gained extra weight after he was born and towards the end I was in love with chocolate. anyways I do understand I want my body to be ready again. healthy and better to take in another child my body is a home and im going to make sure im okay until were ready again.

I cannot wait!!yay:D

I love liam and I know I will love another boy or girl but I hope for a boy plus I would like to see how another kid will look like a mix between edward and I is insane. it's still insane to me that we have liam:)

 

TIme slow down for me please....pretty please

Time has seriously flown on by! it's true I guess what they say... time flies by when your having fun and that's exactly whats been happening.
 My handsome son Liam is growing up way to quick! he just turned 7 months on March 2, 2015. Liam Luna I love that name...then again I did pick it ;)

 

 

 

 

 

I don't understand why he is growing up to quick:(

Liam loves his grandma:) he smiles and laughs when she is home. he even reaches out to her....he has not done that to me...yet. I hope lol

these days my weight has not dropped nor move from that beautiful 152. I try to eat healthy again or even work out but it is difficult but does not mean it cannot be done;)

on Friday me and Liam leave to corpus we are going to be staying there for 2 weeks maybe more we'll see how things are going. Edward is still working over there and is going to continue for God knows how long. we've talked about buying a house and having more kids but come on dude where is my ring?? lol isn't that the question to a lot of women. I mean we have a son already so if you don't want to be married to me then what? lol right now the only thing i'm worried about is whether liam is going to eat.. he has not been wanting to eat or take a bottle he prefers my breast. he is teething which explains it but the eating? I don't know I guess he just does not like the carrots.

hmmmm...

I AM A STAY AT HOME MOM!

and I do nothing but watch Netflix drink coffee and play with my son :) I am not a good stay at home mom I don't even know how to cook that well. the first time I went to stay in the trailer with Edward I was cooking and hello the air exhaust needs to be on and well I did not turn it on and the smoke alarm went on at 5am. ( I was making breakfast for Edward) liam ended up waking up and there was a big smoke cloud in the trailer FAIL at least I can say I tried :D

my son is going crazy with the blanket right now. anyways I should probably go and I definitely need to start updating more BECAUSE I would like to take a look back and read what my 20 year old mind had to say (I am 23 right now) and I feel like I have Alzheimer's or maybe its mom brain? I hope (fingers crossed)

What's new?
These days Liam has been teething so much he is right now biting and chewing on his neon green nike shoes (3c) i bought workout clothe but have i used it? only to lounge around in lol.
Liam has been sitting down since he was 5 months. he is currently wearing a 12 months pajama set but in clothe he is 6-9 months clothing.
Baby fever is in the air and do i want to catch it? maybe...

Things he loves:
1. his grandma liam just adores my mom:D
2. biting and yanking my nipple OUCH!!
3. playing with his hands.

3 things about me:
1. I am dying to workout again!
2. im in love with chocolate candy right now
3. coffee is a must for me at least 1-4 a day. to me it is a soother

Christmas to early??

It's about 4:55 a.m I am nursing liam with the s.n.s just because my milk supply is low I did pump earlier about 2 oz and put it in the sns for liam mix with how many oz I have on my breast so I say he got like about 3-4 oz meanwhile here I go!

Christmas
I am beyond excited to be celebrating thanksgiving, Christmas, new years, valentines day....let's just say all holidays with liam!!! he will be 4 months this Christmas and we want to get him something so awesome! but, he is a baby so there's nothing much he will find interesting so until next year!

But is there anyone else that has been feeling the Christmas spirit? I've been dying to get a Christmas tree and start decorating already just for liam but right now he's only 3 month he will find the lights so interesting and that's what I want!

Tomorrow im going to take liam to get his picture take with santa! at bass pro shop. I also am going to first pick an outfit out for him im thinking a flannel shirt with jeans. I also gotta go buy him those onsies for babys that make them look like a puff ball.... since we will also go look at the Christmas light in McAllen I believe he needs to be cozy warm on the wrap! I am beyond excited for all these holidays coming up. I cant wait Im also going to go buy some Christmas music for him!! ahhh being a first time mom theres so many things I can't wait for him to do.

Whats new:
lately liam has been finding his hands interesting he puts them together and just stares at them. also his feet I will sit him up on my lap and he will try to grab them when they move. its beyond interesting to just watch him see learn these new things.
one thing is liam HATES belly time. he does not want to be on his belly I let him for about 1-3 min but once he starts to whine I pick him right up.

Things he loves:
1. to be carried of course and I have no problem with that!
2. attention if at night he is not sleepy I give him back to pretend im asleep and I start to hear him quiver his lip and begin to cry it's adorable
3. his mommy and grandparents he smiles when I wake up and see him and also when my parents call him gordo lol he is not that chunky!! lol but I love him chunky

3 things about me:
1. I love shopping! but ever since I had liam I cannot fit into my pre pregnancy clothe it is difficult! my pants do not go up my tighs at all. I do love my curves but I do miss my post body..
2. chocolate puts me to sleep.
3. I cant get enough of the song let it go from frozen!

that's it liam is asleep so I will go back to sleep goodnight!!

Been a long time...

it is August 26. 2014 and it is 11:31 pm and yes I am a mommy now!!! I actually have my baby boy Liam on my chest as I type this blog out my baby loves sleeping on my chest I love it! I don't mind if he does become to attached I want him to always want to be with someone never wanting to be alone. as a child even though I had 4 sisters I still did everything on my own...weird I know. anyways being a mother is sure tougher than I thought...hmmm lets start from the beginning
on august 1st I went to my doctors appointment at 37 weeks and 6 days I had an ultra sound done to check my amniotic fluid turns out it was very low I needed it to be at least a 5 and it was a 3 so my doctor told me looks like your having your baby today!! how insane. Edward was at work so my mom texted him to come home because I was having the baby he drove home in at least an hour and a half from corpus.

my doctor then dilated me to 3 cm herself all I can say is it was painful!! I went home got my hospital bag and baby bag ready and went to the hospital with my mom and dad I went in around 11 and Edward got there around 1. skipping ahead I was dilated at 9 1/2 cm at 4:50 the next day I did not feel any intense pain with the contractions until that time all I felt was major cramps but nothing to bad. once I did get to 9 1/2 cm I wanted the epidural but once the nurse checked me I was already to far along she was worried that if I sit up I would sit on the babys head so she gave me an iv to help the pain a little but it just made me drowsy. at around 5 my doctor showed up as if she had just gotten out of bed. seriously. once a contraction came I would push then fall asleep for 1 minute then the same repeatedly four times until at 5:17 my boy came at 7lbs and 1oz

he came out crying and all I said was why is he crying keep in mind I am half asleep and not in anymore pain gladly I did not tear nor did I get an episotomy I was truly blessed except for the fact that my face was SWOLLEN which is very common for women who just had their baby it is exactly 12:22 am Liam woke up for a feeding... back after I had him I was so relieved to get sleep I was so exhausted when I woke up from my 10 minute nap I woke up to this..

its amazing and crazy to love someone so much you didn't even know but because he is mine I love him so much!!!

2nd trimester :)

Yesterday I am officially 20 weeks half way there!!! This baby boy has been kicking like crazy The night before Edward was talking to him saying hello since he had just gotten back home and he started kicking to where he was talking and Edward felt the kicks it was so cute:)

This baby boy has been growing so fast I'm just so excited to meet him but I've been enjoying this pregnancy so far:) 

A story which is tmi 

Lately my breast have been leaking so much I know tmi but it's insane and funny it's just so surreal.

Yesterday I was having a hard time getting up from laying down. He was giving me so much pain I had to wait for him to move so I can bend and get up I feel extremely huge! Since I've always been thin and just having this belly feels like I'm already ready to have this baby out lol but not quite since he's still growing in there:)

As I type this he's been kicking :) it's such an awesome experience  to have this baby inside and this pregnancy even the nausea was fine I'm just so happy:)