TIme slow down for me please....pretty please

Time has seriously flown on by! it's true I guess what they say... time flies by when your having fun and that's exactly whats been happening.
 My handsome son Liam is growing up way to quick! he just turned 7 months on March 2, 2015. Liam Luna I love that name...then again I did pick it ;)

 

 

 

 

 

I don't understand why he is growing up to quick:(

Liam loves his grandma:) he smiles and laughs when she is home. he even reaches out to her....he has not done that to me...yet. I hope lol

these days my weight has not dropped nor move from that beautiful 152. I try to eat healthy again or even work out but it is difficult but does not mean it cannot be done;)

on Friday me and Liam leave to corpus we are going to be staying there for 2 weeks maybe more we'll see how things are going. Edward is still working over there and is going to continue for God knows how long. we've talked about buying a house and having more kids but come on dude where is my ring?? lol isn't that the question to a lot of women. I mean we have a son already so if you don't want to be married to me then what? lol right now the only thing i'm worried about is whether liam is going to eat.. he has not been wanting to eat or take a bottle he prefers my breast. he is teething which explains it but the eating? I don't know I guess he just does not like the carrots.

hmmmm...

I AM A STAY AT HOME MOM!

and I do nothing but watch Netflix drink coffee and play with my son :) I am not a good stay at home mom I don't even know how to cook that well. the first time I went to stay in the trailer with Edward I was cooking and hello the air exhaust needs to be on and well I did not turn it on and the smoke alarm went on at 5am. ( I was making breakfast for Edward) liam ended up waking up and there was a big smoke cloud in the trailer FAIL at least I can say I tried :D

my son is going crazy with the blanket right now. anyways I should probably go and I definitely need to start updating more BECAUSE I would like to take a look back and read what my 20 year old mind had to say (I am 23 right now) and I feel like I have Alzheimer's or maybe its mom brain? I hope (fingers crossed)

What's new?
These days Liam has been teething so much he is right now biting and chewing on his neon green nike shoes (3c) i bought workout clothe but have i used it? only to lounge around in lol.
Liam has been sitting down since he was 5 months. he is currently wearing a 12 months pajama set but in clothe he is 6-9 months clothing.
Baby fever is in the air and do i want to catch it? maybe...

Things he loves:
1. his grandma liam just adores my mom:D
2. biting and yanking my nipple OUCH!!
3. playing with his hands.

3 things about me:
1. I am dying to workout again!
2. im in love with chocolate candy right now
3. coffee is a must for me at least 1-4 a day. to me it is a soother

Christmas to early??

It's about 4:55 a.m I am nursing liam with the s.n.s just because my milk supply is low I did pump earlier about 2 oz and put it in the sns for liam mix with how many oz I have on my breast so I say he got like about 3-4 oz meanwhile here I go!

Christmas
I am beyond excited to be celebrating thanksgiving, Christmas, new years, valentines day....let's just say all holidays with liam!!! he will be 4 months this Christmas and we want to get him something so awesome! but, he is a baby so there's nothing much he will find interesting so until next year!

But is there anyone else that has been feeling the Christmas spirit? I've been dying to get a Christmas tree and start decorating already just for liam but right now he's only 3 month he will find the lights so interesting and that's what I want!

Tomorrow im going to take liam to get his picture take with santa! at bass pro shop. I also am going to first pick an outfit out for him im thinking a flannel shirt with jeans. I also gotta go buy him those onsies for babys that make them look like a puff ball.... since we will also go look at the Christmas light in McAllen I believe he needs to be cozy warm on the wrap! I am beyond excited for all these holidays coming up. I cant wait Im also going to go buy some Christmas music for him!! ahhh being a first time mom theres so many things I can't wait for him to do.

Whats new:
lately liam has been finding his hands interesting he puts them together and just stares at them. also his feet I will sit him up on my lap and he will try to grab them when they move. its beyond interesting to just watch him see learn these new things.
one thing is liam HATES belly time. he does not want to be on his belly I let him for about 1-3 min but once he starts to whine I pick him right up.

Things he loves:
1. to be carried of course and I have no problem with that!
2. attention if at night he is not sleepy I give him back to pretend im asleep and I start to hear him quiver his lip and begin to cry it's adorable
3. his mommy and grandparents he smiles when I wake up and see him and also when my parents call him gordo lol he is not that chunky!! lol but I love him chunky

3 things about me:
1. I love shopping! but ever since I had liam I cannot fit into my pre pregnancy clothe it is difficult! my pants do not go up my tighs at all. I do love my curves but I do miss my post body..
2. chocolate puts me to sleep.
3. I cant get enough of the song let it go from frozen!

that's it liam is asleep so I will go back to sleep goodnight!!

Been a long time...

it is August 26. 2014 and it is 11:31 pm and yes I am a mommy now!!! I actually have my baby boy Liam on my chest as I type this blog out my baby loves sleeping on my chest I love it! I don't mind if he does become to attached I want him to always want to be with someone never wanting to be alone. as a child even though I had 4 sisters I still did everything on my own...weird I know. anyways being a mother is sure tougher than I thought...hmmm lets start from the beginning
on august 1st I went to my doctors appointment at 37 weeks and 6 days I had an ultra sound done to check my amniotic fluid turns out it was very low I needed it to be at least a 5 and it was a 3 so my doctor told me looks like your having your baby today!! how insane. Edward was at work so my mom texted him to come home because I was having the baby he drove home in at least an hour and a half from corpus.

my doctor then dilated me to 3 cm herself all I can say is it was painful!! I went home got my hospital bag and baby bag ready and went to the hospital with my mom and dad I went in around 11 and Edward got there around 1. skipping ahead I was dilated at 9 1/2 cm at 4:50 the next day I did not feel any intense pain with the contractions until that time all I felt was major cramps but nothing to bad. once I did get to 9 1/2 cm I wanted the epidural but once the nurse checked me I was already to far along she was worried that if I sit up I would sit on the babys head so she gave me an iv to help the pain a little but it just made me drowsy. at around 5 my doctor showed up as if she had just gotten out of bed. seriously. once a contraction came I would push then fall asleep for 1 minute then the same repeatedly four times until at 5:17 my boy came at 7lbs and 1oz

he came out crying and all I said was why is he crying keep in mind I am half asleep and not in anymore pain gladly I did not tear nor did I get an episotomy I was truly blessed except for the fact that my face was SWOLLEN which is very common for women who just had their baby it is exactly 12:22 am Liam woke up for a feeding... back after I had him I was so relieved to get sleep I was so exhausted when I woke up from my 10 minute nap I woke up to this..

its amazing and crazy to love someone so much you didn't even know but because he is mine I love him so much!!!

2nd trimester :)

Yesterday I am officially 20 weeks half way there!!! This baby boy has been kicking like crazy The night before Edward was talking to him saying hello since he had just gotten back home and he started kicking to where he was talking and Edward felt the kicks it was so cute:)

This baby boy has been growing so fast I'm just so excited to meet him but I've been enjoying this pregnancy so far:) 

A story which is tmi 

Lately my breast have been leaking so much I know tmi but it's insane and funny it's just so surreal.

Yesterday I was having a hard time getting up from laying down. He was giving me so much pain I had to wait for him to move so I can bend and get up I feel extremely huge! Since I've always been thin and just having this belly feels like I'm already ready to have this baby out lol but not quite since he's still growing in there:)

As I type this he's been kicking :) it's such an awesome experience  to have this baby inside and this pregnancy even the nausea was fine I'm just so happy:) 

19weeks

Lately I have been feeling the lil one move around a lot like crazy. Not only dad but I've been able to feel his kicks for a few weeks now:) so happy to feel him moving around freely in there just so u know I love u to let u kick my bladder -.- lol anyways Edward felt the baby kick last week and last night my mom felt him kick he's being such a sweetheart kicking for everyone to feel:) including me! Then I blame myself I would poke my belly just for him to kick and now he's doing it. Constantly I wake up at night just feeling me kick me to turn to my other side lol well played my baby.

I've noticed his favorite spot is on the right side every day i wake up and he's just there chilling like a big boy already choosing his sides 😉

I cannot wait till he's born were so excited we even got more clothe for him so far only 2 outfits were not buying any new born clothing more like 3 months I think he's going to be long and thin since I'm hardly showing and I'm already nearing up to the 5 months but I'm so happy I can't wait to see him!

Picked up a pair of maternity pants they are not fitted to me yet but maybe once I'm a lil bigger they'll fit better:) 

Anyways this is him when we went at 13 weeks he's so big already!! Can't wait for the next sono

Happy birthday

Today was my little sisters birthday she turned 13 I can't believe she's a teenager already how insane!! 

I'm so happy she enjoyed her day with lazer tag then Peter piper :) we ate a lot!!!

On an update with me I have been thinking a lot about the baby and it's been all I think about I don't know if it's a boy or girl or who's nose or eyes or ears he/she will have but I decided it won't matter I would love a boy but a lil girl would be nice also:) I can't believe tokorrow I will be 7 weeks!! Im going to try to work only for a few hours but if I get the abdominal pain again ill just leave right away today while I was sitting with my mom and cousin while everyone else played lazer tag I got the most insane pain ever I wanted to cry I seriously thought maybe something had happened I don't know why I'm getting so much pain but I hope God it goes away and everything is just fine with the baby. I love you already and I'm happy everyone in my family and Edwards family is so happy also:) 

December update

It's hard to believe how fast everything is moving seems like just yesterday me and Edward were on the phone talking for the first time ever on December 24,2009. On 12/24/13 I went to the doctors feeling sick I had this horrible abdominal pain and it felt like cramps I thought it was my cyst since I was also having a slight fever. The doctor came back with many test and gave me the positive.

To what else. To a new life. It's hard to believe I wanted to finish school first then get a job then get married then be like that for a few years before we decided on kids. But the scariest was why I was getting this pain the doctor was guessing it could be an Ectopic pregnancy where the embryo is stuck in the Fallopian tube (which I thought was cool since I learned that in my anatomy class) the scary thing was if it was I would have to get it removed.  

And the next day was christmas I had already told my parents once I found out I did not want to keep it a secret if its life was in danger.

On 12/26/13 my mom and I and Edward went to the hospital to find out the pain the doctors were beyond rude but I don't care I was there to see how everything was after 8 hrs of sonogram blood work and urine test everything was ok (I did not get to see anything of hear anything because the ultrasound technician I'm guessing was mad since he was working they all kept saying that's why you go to your obgyn and I said I actually just found out 2 days ago) those jerks I just needed to know if everything was ok ))and I just needed bed rest the crazy part was I read the baby heart beat was 114!!! Edward said he's prbly working out. Lol I was scared and confused But like my mother said maybe it's Gods way He thinks your ready. 

Ready or not it's going to come. and sorry for the (it's) I just haven't gotten used to it yet. Everything just seemed to be moving to fast I just want to stay underneath my covers and watch everything disappear. I want to finish nursing school. That's my goal. I WILL finish if this baby is just a slight drift that's fine school will be there later but I'm focused on finishing college I need to finish college it's like my dream. (Over-exaggerate) maybe not right now I feel so happy and joyful but I know I probably will. It's a CRAZY feeling to know I have a little shrimp inside me (bleh) I always thought sperm even having a tail was weird like a tadpole but oh well. 

I'm happy my parents were ok though I was a little shocked to their reaction I mostly cried and felt like I wanted to jump off a building.

Edward just seemed happy and I was very ANGRY how could he be excited or even happy but I'm glad one of us were it should be celebrated no matter what and for me to feel this way will prbly affect me later on to read in the future but that's how I feel right now I need to be honest. 

Edwards parents were even different his mom just said ayy niños and his dad was clapping -_- again not so happy. My sister was crying but happy and I was scared shocked and still couldn't grasp the fact that it was actually a baby. 

Anyways I have nausea but it's going away since I'm already 6 weeks and 4 days:o how insane seriously I feel like fainting everytime I say that. Anyways I gotta go shower and clean my room and look thru my clothes of what still fits until I can no longer wear it :/ but yes I still cannot really say these words yet and I won't but yup. Goodbye and until next week this is like my own journal:) 

My mother thank you God for blessing me with her:)

Music Monday!

My favorite song this month: 

Sweater weather by the neighborhood

 http://youtu.be/PW-oia9YjwY

If you haven't yet heard it it's a great song and goes with the weather:)

Workout routine

Starting my workout routine is always hard! After school started I didn't workout anymore since school was taking most of my time and Edward didn't have a job so I was spending as much time as I can with him because somehow I knew he would leave again. Plus school and after work I'm always so exhausted of being on my feet all day I just don't have the will power to get up and workout. Me and Edward tried going to the park and just take a walk but it's so hot here in texas you will just get sunburn and it's not worth it. Once Edward got a job again (Which I knew would happen) and he left to corpus AGAIN I decided to get back to working out. Plus school is almost over so what is stopping me? Nothing. The only thing is I got into the habit of eating burgers I have been obsessed with burgers for this semester I don't know why. 

For it being the first time in working out it was TOUGH I did t25 I'm not a big fan of the cardio so I started with core speed which I know is way more ahead and advanced but I think cardio is to slow.

I felt so lightheaded and nauseated after working out it only made sense since yesterday and the day before that me and Edward got whataburger. I know I know bad Becky lol but I just love the honey BBQ Chicken strip.... Moving on before I go buy one lol we've been eating out so much! And he has not gain weight like I have since he does Brazilian jiu-jitsu but anyways my semester is almost over and can't wait for tmrw in being sore:) I hope I keep up:) 

Makeup Haul&catch up

I have been gone for such a long time but let me catch up I went strawberry blonde:)

which I LOVE  I'm sticking to this hair color not only that BUT! I have become OBSESSED with makeup like lipstick, concelear, primer, eye shadows and eye liner. Oh gosh on Monday my boyfriend took me shopping and I went to Walmart and I bought several lipstick  products and I just love them all.

Anyways school is going kinda hard I've been having a hard time staying focus and had to drop a class because the other class was keeping more of time but still that is Not an excuse. Hopefully I get better because the semester is ending and I am doing better on my anatomy class but still school is getting tougher. Tomorrow is my dad's birthday and I cannot wait to give him his gift

going to log off because my boyfriend is getting it out of his jujitsu class and I'm waiting for him so goodbye and have a good night

Oh gosh hoping I get to get a macbookpro *fingers crossed* 

My family

I never noticed before when I was younger how much my family means to me. Before it was like whatever but as I got older I started understanding how much my parents mean the world to me And how much my older sister is just the best my little sisters are very different but u know what they both encourage me so much! 

I'm blessed to have the greatest parents my dad is hilarious I see where my older sister gets it from my mom is so sweet and caring just liked my little sisters I'm glad to say they are the best.