BALANCING: life, school, family, and the future.

SCHOOL
Trying to balance school and family is already being difficult for me i usually like to study and work on school work from 8-5 then i stop and start making dinner and spend the rest of the night with liam and Edward.
Being the fact that i take my classes this semester online is what is driving me insane how is it that school takes up so much of my time?? sometimes i feel like my priorities are not correct. school and family wise i don't understand how my mom did it (she finished school after all her kids were in school) now that its summer i have been studying for my upcoming HESI A2 exam. its my second time taking it and i am only retaking one section which i am praying to God i pass. I have been studying like crazy but hopefully it all pays off in the long run. i need the HESI exam to apply to my RN classes i still need one prerequisite which is the intro to nursing hopefully i'll be able to take it in august then apply into the nursing program in october so i can get in on january. School was never easy it's taking me 1 year and a half for my prereq before it was more classes now they only want 4 so alot of classes are not going through. plus getting pregnant and taking a year off was a hard decision. maybe i would've been done by now but oh well life is life and things change.

FAMILY
Liam and I have been working on the colors, shapes, and names of objects. He can easily point out fish, ball, dad, mom, and can tell me when he wants to watch ice age. He says ice age for TV. so far he doesn't seem interested in learning i try and teach him when I am taking breaks of studying but he seems rather annoyed. this kid is insane he gets mad when i take a picture or better yet annoyed he says "Aaahhhh" and rolls his eyes. or even when i ask for a kiss he gets bothered. i don't understand why but im guessing that is his personality
With Edward things seem pretty much the same now that i visit him for a little bit longer periods he seems rather content to have liam and i around. and i wouldn't blame him he's over there by himself and wants his family around. once school starts is when it will get tough i won't be able to visit as much and probably won't be seeing much of eachother.

BREASTFEEDING
since liam was 3 months i have relactated and i am still breastfeeding on demand. he doesn't breastfeed for long periods only at night or when it's nap time he will. it doesn't seem like he's going to ween off anytime soon. i wish he would but i would rather have him do it on his own terms.

HAVING MORE KIDS
on having more kids it doesn't seem like we will have another i would want to but to be honest i feel like liam is going to be an only child. Edward is satisfied with liam and feels kids are expensive; i don't see me and edward having another just because with school being that it will take up 2 years and then plus i want to work right away i don't think we will have another until another 4 years. liam will be 6 by then. I would like another child but i feel like it probably won't happen who knows. maybe it will

LIFE in GENERAL
life is great it's not perfect but nobody's life is. It's hectic at times, and there is sacrifices made but that is life and even though our life is no where we would think it would be we are on a whole different course. it's still amazing and it's awesome seeing liam do small little things. the other day he was building blocks he's never seen anyone do that so where he learned i don't know im guessing he just put 1 and 1 together and knew they clicked. being a parent is different it's not anything i thought it would be im saying because now im in charge of another human being. it's insane but hey i'lll get used to it eventually even thought he is going to be 2!

Liam is not potty trained yet he doesn't seem interested in using the potty he usually sits and wants to get up right away. i hope he learns soon because diapers are not cheap at all.