Breastfeeding Toddler?

It has been 1 month since liam last breastfeed and it feels AWESOME!

I am sad though because we've been breastfeeding since liam was 3 months and no its no more.

Liam had stopped breastfeeding already and only did at night or when he was sleepy but now he is no longer asking for it. It happened because i had hives for 3 days and i had to take steroids so liam couldn't breastfeed but the day before he had not breastfeed the whole day since we were driving and running errands.
Now i noticed at night he needs to touch my breast to sleep which is so weird but im guessing he has been adjusted to doing that since he breastfeed for so long. i am so sad and yet relieved that he has stopped. im happy but i look at some photos and i just think, "my gosh i cannot believe i breastfeed him for 2 years!"
i remember looking back and my goal was 3 i saw mommies out there who kept up with it but after a while i got tired of being so hungry after liam breastfeed so im glad its over with.
For sure i will do the same for my other future kids i don't like cow milk and i wouldn't want my kids drinking breastmilk from cows.
Liams attitude has risen up though at first he started speaking more words but then all of a sudden he started banging his head and throwing tantrums! im like what is this kid doing. i try and calm him down but for some reason he's not having it.
Other than that he's a good and sweet kid when nobody is around. hes the smartest but when grandma and grandpa or his aunts are around he just doesn't want to listen.
i have no idea what to do anymore im so lost!

BALANCING: life, school, family, and the future.

SCHOOL
Trying to balance school and family is already being difficult for me i usually like to study and work on school work from 8-5 then i stop and start making dinner and spend the rest of the night with liam and Edward.
Being the fact that i take my classes this semester online is what is driving me insane how is it that school takes up so much of my time?? sometimes i feel like my priorities are not correct. school and family wise i don't understand how my mom did it (she finished school after all her kids were in school) now that its summer i have been studying for my upcoming HESI A2 exam. its my second time taking it and i am only retaking one section which i am praying to God i pass. I have been studying like crazy but hopefully it all pays off in the long run. i need the HESI exam to apply to my RN classes i still need one prerequisite which is the intro to nursing hopefully i'll be able to take it in august then apply into the nursing program in october so i can get in on january. School was never easy it's taking me 1 year and a half for my prereq before it was more classes now they only want 4 so alot of classes are not going through. plus getting pregnant and taking a year off was a hard decision. maybe i would've been done by now but oh well life is life and things change.

FAMILY
Liam and I have been working on the colors, shapes, and names of objects. He can easily point out fish, ball, dad, mom, and can tell me when he wants to watch ice age. He says ice age for TV. so far he doesn't seem interested in learning i try and teach him when I am taking breaks of studying but he seems rather annoyed. this kid is insane he gets mad when i take a picture or better yet annoyed he says "Aaahhhh" and rolls his eyes. or even when i ask for a kiss he gets bothered. i don't understand why but im guessing that is his personality
With Edward things seem pretty much the same now that i visit him for a little bit longer periods he seems rather content to have liam and i around. and i wouldn't blame him he's over there by himself and wants his family around. once school starts is when it will get tough i won't be able to visit as much and probably won't be seeing much of eachother.

BREASTFEEDING
since liam was 3 months i have relactated and i am still breastfeeding on demand. he doesn't breastfeed for long periods only at night or when it's nap time he will. it doesn't seem like he's going to ween off anytime soon. i wish he would but i would rather have him do it on his own terms.

HAVING MORE KIDS
on having more kids it doesn't seem like we will have another i would want to but to be honest i feel like liam is going to be an only child. Edward is satisfied with liam and feels kids are expensive; i don't see me and edward having another just because with school being that it will take up 2 years and then plus i want to work right away i don't think we will have another until another 4 years. liam will be 6 by then. I would like another child but i feel like it probably won't happen who knows. maybe it will

LIFE in GENERAL
life is great it's not perfect but nobody's life is. It's hectic at times, and there is sacrifices made but that is life and even though our life is no where we would think it would be we are on a whole different course. it's still amazing and it's awesome seeing liam do small little things. the other day he was building blocks he's never seen anyone do that so where he learned i don't know im guessing he just put 1 and 1 together and knew they clicked. being a parent is different it's not anything i thought it would be im saying because now im in charge of another human being. it's insane but hey i'lll get used to it eventually even thought he is going to be 2!

Liam is not potty trained yet he doesn't seem interested in using the potty he usually sits and wants to get up right away. i hope he learns soon because diapers are not cheap at all.

So far...

Hello!! it's been a long while its 12:00 and me and liam are still awake.. oh geez this kid. today was a long day only because I was sitting in a chair from 8-5 doing school work...
liam is 17 months! and he is so crazy he likes watching t.v which is not good at all we try to go outside but geez I feel like everytime I do I get a headache, and I want to go to the park but I don't like to go alone. I know I know.
I would say so far life has been amazing me and Edward just celebrated our 6 year anniversary and we've been talking about having another baby before liam turns 3 the only thing is I am still overweight...well I still haven't lost my baby weight but all that is about to change because Monday me and my sister are starting up insanity! again haha but man that workout video really works!
not only that but also I just started school and I don't think I want to get pregnant during school again because then it'll be another year I put off or maybe just 6 months. But then we also don't want liam growing up alone I had 2 sisters and Edward had his twin brother.
I am still currently breastfeeding I have been trying to wean him off and so far he only nurses a few times but at night he does way to much. he wakes up multiple times to nurse I offer him regular milk but nope he doesn't want that at night.
my life has been going good so far I am very very blessed with everything God has given me I have an amazing family and parents, sisters, and future mother in law (family in law? is that one) haha anywho I will try and update a lot more I want to look back at what I write it's good memories :D