It's hard to believe how fast everything is moving seems like just yesterday me and Edward were on the phone talking for the first time ever on December 24,2009. On 12/24/13 I went to the doctors feeling sick I had this horrible abdominal pain and it felt like cramps I thought it was my cyst since I was also having a slight fever. The doctor came back with many test and gave me the positive.
To what else. To a new life. It's hard to believe I wanted to finish school first then get a job then get married then be like that for a few years before we decided on kids. But the scariest was why I was getting this pain the doctor was guessing it could be an Ectopic pregnancy where the embryo is stuck in the Fallopian tube (which I thought was cool since I learned that in my anatomy class) the scary thing was if it was I would have to get it removed.
And the next day was christmas I had already told my parents once I found out I did not want to keep it a secret if its life was in danger.
On 12/26/13 my mom and I and Edward went to the hospital to find out the pain the doctors were beyond rude but I don't care I was there to see how everything was after 8 hrs of sonogram blood work and urine test everything was ok (I did not get to see anything of hear anything because the ultrasound technician I'm guessing was mad since he was working they all kept saying that's why you go to your obgyn and I said I actually just found out 2 days ago) those jerks I just needed to know if everything was ok ))and I just needed bed rest the crazy part was I read the baby heart beat was 114!!! Edward said he's prbly working out. Lol I was scared and confused But like my mother said maybe it's Gods way He thinks your ready.
Ready or not it's going to come. and sorry for the (it's) I just haven't gotten used to it yet. Everything just seemed to be moving to fast I just want to stay underneath my covers and watch everything disappear. I want to finish nursing school. That's my goal. I WILL finish if this baby is just a slight drift that's fine school will be there later but I'm focused on finishing college I need to finish college it's like my dream. (Over-exaggerate) maybe not right now I feel so happy and joyful but I know I probably will. It's a CRAZY feeling to know I have a little shrimp inside me (bleh) I always thought sperm even having a tail was weird like a tadpole but oh well.
I'm happy my parents were ok though I was a little shocked to their reaction I mostly cried and felt like I wanted to jump off a building.
Edward just seemed happy and I was very ANGRY how could he be excited or even happy but I'm glad one of us were it should be celebrated no matter what and for me to feel this way will prbly affect me later on to read in the future but that's how I feel right now I need to be honest.
Edwards parents were even different his mom just said ayy niños and his dad was clapping -_- again not so happy. My sister was crying but happy and I was scared shocked and still couldn't grasp the fact that it was actually a baby.
Anyways I have nausea but it's going away since I'm already 6 weeks and 4 days:o how insane seriously I feel like fainting everytime I say that. Anyways I gotta go shower and clean my room and look thru my clothes of what still fits until I can no longer wear it :/ but yes I still cannot really say these words yet and I won't but yup. Goodbye and until next week this is like my own journal:)
My mother thank you God for blessing me with her:)
I'm so happy she enjoyed her day with lazer tag then Peter piper :) we ate a lot!!!
